Author Archives: Claire

Tailspin

It’s past noon and I am at last coming out of my surprise tailspin.

What has happened to my morning?

This business of healing, waking up, recovering, whatever you want to call it, is not linear. Or even circular. 

It’s more of a spiral. I come back around to things but I am not in the exact same place as previous encounters.

Recent events and of course today’s date tore open my stash of overwhelming grief. I didn’t know I had so much; realizing what has been lost is best noticed in nibbles.

I don’t know where I’m going but it’s better than where I’ve been, so I keep on. 

Tears are salt water, which is the cure for anything, and some days they just spill out, sloshing over the decks. I sail the unknown waters, searching. Sometimes I soar.

And sometimes I find myself in a tailspin. 

But then there are those times I catch a glimpse of me “before” as the wind tears at my hair and I hear the waves rushing past my ears.

Think. 

What grounds me?

I know this. 

Lifting. Music. Art. 

I can fly…I can do this…I don’t need to disappear. 

I gotchu, girl. 

The words "I am safe" written on a mirror. Repeating this helps me out of a tailspin.

 

 

 

 

What Would Jesus Do?

(Credit: I found this on the web heading an article in relevantmagazine.com) I don’t think it’s this…. Nothing like witnessing firsthand the devolution of civil discourse to give a glimpse into the minds of people. There was no pretense at exchange of ideas or curiosity about why someone might hold a differing opinion. When not… Continue Reading

This Week in Narnia

Yes, it’s snowing again Spring is a tough season at this elevation. Yay for the snow because it means we’ll have water this summer but oy vey, it’s beginning to wear. Narnia is greyscale and I miss colors. I opened my curtains to a serious snowstorm, a new crop of icicles and a house finch… Continue Reading

A Year On And The Government Stands

Russia thought the government would just fold up Governments around the world have shown us who they are and what they care about (hint: it’s not people, peace or justice). President Zelenskyy was right about Russian Federation and Iran; “one terrorist has found the other”. A year of cowardly destruction by the terrorist Russian Federation government…and… Continue Reading

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